A Regretful Decision

Have anyone ever made a terrible mistake and for one moment u made the wrong decision that can never turn back forever?

First of all, I would call myself a seeker of true love, who failed in plenty of relationship but still keeping faith that true love exist. There was once, where i m all over this girl.....a girl who is my coursemate studying in the same college. I was so in love with her that almost every moment i would be thinking about her and if we're in the same class, my eyes could never leave her...

At first things went pretty well, we start to know each other and we get closer and closer...so close that i dont even know we're a couple or best friends....somewhere in between i guess. So, one day i ask her whether we should start a relationship and try if things worked out... As usual, the beginning of the relationship is always sweet and nice in every aspect.

As we go on, things start to change and sometimes she is being irrationally demanding and sometimes i find it very hard to communicate with her.. As a result, we broke up after i was frustrated and were continuosly irritated. I thought that was the best for both of us. I also believe that time could be the antidote and wound would one day heal by itself...

The relationship itself was just three months....but the pain i suffered after it was way beyond expectation...and is already one year since then. It hurts me when she was flirting other guys, dating other guy, and the worst of it is that we are in the same intake and would eventually meet each other everyday and i have to pretend as though nothing happen...

As i thought i am already suffered the worst thign ever...i was shocked to see that this ex of mine is dating a bastard of the century and one of the guy i hate the most in my life....Wat the heck, man !!!!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?! Can u imagine how i feel?

Everything in this world must experience growth and perhaps i am just experiencing it the harsh way.. now, me and dis ex of mine are back to friends, as in the very close friends type....i still don't believe i could still sacrifice for this girl and would not want to hurt her.. but deep in the corner of my heart, i know...i have loved her before more then any other girl in this world, i have tried to be a good boyfriend and take care of her more than my soul....but i would say, let the past be history, and may the sweet memories craved deeply in our heart....now, we are friends, or more detailed, should be best friends...