Where shall i start?? lets begin with how i know dis arsehole...way back in high school, i know a friend, name him JT, he was so hated in my school dat almost everywhere he goes, he will be teased....and sumhow he started to join my group of frenz, me n my frenz at first had sum sympathy of him being treated by the others...we even helped him in going after the girl he likes...we try to get him to be accepted...
At first everything was okay...we hang out quite often and no problems occur...
there was once we had a party over at my frenz place..of coz wif sum girls...(nth 18 sx here)
but this guy JT start acting lik a drunkard (which i doubt he is drunk..) and a few girls in an uncomfortable manner..(eg.taking a key from a girls hand but start touching from her elbow...)
haiz...the girls complaint to me and asked me y m i inviting a guy lik him to join....
being a total ass, he alwayz acted in another way (not himself) while havin a girl around us...
he even ask a girl who juz enter a car he was drinking, "are u used to fast car?" wat the heck man...he is only driving an iswara aeroback dat time....haiz...
even try to act lik jay chou (driving with a hand on the stering and the other on the driver's window) on a manual car and he never leave his post even when the car engine dies of when the traffic light turns green...
apart from all that, me n my fren tot he cud still be a steady fren...
who know's? he is the worse guy i ever know in the universe so far...
here comes the betraying part....
i was chosen for NS that time, leavin my gf dat time in penang al alone.....although i do call a couple of times to make sure everyting is ok and catch up the latest abt her..i also called one of my closest frens (also in the group)....
guess what i found out.....this JT guy create a misunderstanding and add fire here and there...as a result my closest fren broke up wif her gf dat time...and my gf dat time told me dat he asked my gf to hang out wif him but was turned down...but still insist that he is at her place d and asked her to come down juz to meet up....the next thing, my gf of dat time juz went on the car after much persuasion and insistence and with the thought of juz talk downstairs but.....
he drove the car off....wat is he trying to prove?? date a fren's gf??
and when i was in trouble once and asked his help to drop me at my house from gurney, which he was on the way back to his house..... he was pretending telling me he wud be busy and not goin home yet...wat next...i found out he fetch sum chick back to the girls place which is further from his house to gurny....
now, he is in my college, in fact the same class as i am..almost 2 and a half year now...
at first,i dislike him and dun even wana care abt him...but sum of my new college frens feel he is okay and persuade me dat he changed...
now,into the last semester, i tried to forget the past and talk wif him lik normal friends... things,as usual went well at first, but.....
nearing the final exam now...he photostated a copy of notes compiled by me and my friends after doing research from books and the internet... i simply joke wif him saying that he was using our copies without permission and plagarism...so i said dat he shud be treating us if he pass as a copyright fees...well, after knowing dat the notes was compile by us (which i tink he knows when he photostated)....he did not even say thank you or show any signs of appreciation and still insist that he deserve the notes...i even taught him wateva crap he asked...
this wussy boy even posted on his blog showing dat he is the victim (which is why i posted this post..)but he juz remove it after i commented it..muz be guilty of sumting..and try to get sympathy as he alwiz is..cant he differentiate a joke or a threaten from a guy he knows for so many years?..now in college,especially my class, all the girls have known of him as a guy who always use wateva ways to get near girls and shall be labeled pervert...and uses the friendliness of cristianity to be able to draw close to girls...haiz....last time he was devoted to buddhism and once said dat he is a free-thinker but now keep saying he is a christian, when his dad strongly against him joining and he is not baptisted...
wat can i say??? i no longer could tolerate him acting and pretending from the day i know him till dis very second....today, i learnt that it is very hard to change something u r born with it... and he is born an arse-hole...
as a message to him, f*ck off u ungrateful arse-hole and stop pretending and behave like urself before u forgot who u actually are...dis is my last advise for u.....
for those who knows this guy dat i m talking about, post ur supportive comment and brighten those who are cheated by his lies and pretentious self...wake up ppl..look at him properly..
Cheers !!!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
The Fnishing Line of DBS March 2006....
As the words on the cake suggest....its the last day of class for my intake...we actually wanted to do sumting more unusual dat we cud not forget...but due to last minute planning...we decided a class party...anyways, who will act pay attetion in class on the last day?? all this wud not happen if not becoz of ur cooperaive lecturer of the day, or in fact one of the most happening lecturer in disted...our Mr. Mark Ooi, an ex frees as well...everybody starts to get emotional when we switched off the light and start to lid the candle...
hehe...however, we failed to get those tears out from the girls' eyes...hehe
everyone had fun and flashes of photo can be seen taken everywhere in class.. well, to us,two and a half year is not short and we haev been thru all kind of ups and down, from the management reducing our exam time from 3 hours to 2 hours, increasing the price of resource fees and car stickers...thru the same class no matter rain or shine...
everyone had fun and flashes of photo can be seen taken everywhere in class.. well, to us,two and a half year is not short and we haev been thru all kind of ups and down, from the management reducing our exam time from 3 hours to 2 hours, increasing the price of resource fees and car stickers...thru the same class no matter rain or shine...
all the memories shall not only be kept in the memory card of the cameras but also in my mind and as wel as my heart....
the atmosphere that day was filled with laughters when old memories are shared...except for jacky...the guy have got tonnes of humiliating stories and he likes to pretend as though it doesnt happen before and act forgetful..lol...it makes us feel lik wana tease him more...
apart from that, i appreciate that everyone was willing to join the fun and was sporting enough to messed around...hehe...
the chicks of my class.....
the man of my class...my class begins with the girl and guy ratio with close to 1:1....but one by one withdrawing and in the end..the ratio is guy 1:2 girls..so guy is kinda more unique and special...lol...but realli miz those who did not remain til the finishing line....haiz...
the pattern thoong...
unforgetable memories....i wish each and everyone of u succesful and all the best..... and never forget me....hehe..take carez..Wednesday, June 25, 2008
End Of College Life...
A lot of ppl would say that 2 and a half year period is not a long period and in fact in a glimpse of eye, its over....but how many ppl would actually notice the difference or perhaps the changes within the two n a half year??
For instanse...cigarette pricing goes up from RM6.50 to RM8.40 and the pub S3 oso become MOIS already....all happened within this 2 years...
wait, lets get back to wat i wana say....m now in the last week of the class and are happy coz i finally leaving the college which i have been enduring uncountered frustration due to the ignorance of the management and also a few lecturers....in fact, u can check out a great classroom arguments between the ah pek lecturer and the fearless student...just type in "student vs lecturer" in youtube...haha..and believe it or not..the student dat argues with the lecturer score a distinction in the subject....
on the other hand, me n my classmates do make our college life way happier and way happening to balance up the boredom of class and assignments...watever u can think of we had it....hehe...
to name a few, a supposingly disted concert turned to a pop and rock party...the only one so far for disted....besides that, our class organizes a great trip to Pangkor Island and Redang Island..
The team that makes it happens....(Disted Concert 07)that is just the class activities...out of class activities, countless times to clubs, beach bbq, Genting trip, Singapore trip (ZoukOut 07) between friends....hehe..jus trying to bring back some memories....we even had some marathon last minute study..it works out pretty well as we obey the one and only rule...PLAY HARD AND STUDY HARD....
ZoukOut Main Stage (taken during armin van buuren performance)
CHEERS BABY!!! (drinkin in ZoukOut)
Photos of ZoukOut Beach Party
One of those clubbing moments....LOL
So fast.....two and a half year is gone...but as i realised the losses of time, i gained great memories that i would always remember...and friends that i would lay my trust on...and of coz gained precious knowledge that i could bring to grave...well, i hope and wish all of u the best of luck and prove urself useful to the society...who knows..maybe one day u wud c me on newspaper (NOT the OBITUARY)....or maybe magazines...lol...watever it is, just good luck in exams and i m looking to do a graduation party or better known as after exam party fro disted DBS student of 2006..no matter wat intake u are....drop me a suggesttion and make this the last great thing to end a great adventure of college before everybody pursuit their future....
ALL THE BEST TO DBS GRADUATING 08!!!!!
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Weird Things About Humans (U may not notice !!!)......
Yo, ppl!!! m bak...but dis time is not some crappy bull shit about imagination....is about REALITY....
this time i begin to notice about weird human behavior dat comes along the day we enter the world...or maybe with the society u grown up in..but no matter wat, it's similar to everybody whether u like it or not...
now, let me start about attraction...we all like beautiful things, rite? so most of u would agree about me saying dat all good looking guys and good looking girls are sought after,right? now, let me tell u an actual fact, most of the ppl like is actualkly the challenge of getting a good looking opposite sex.. for instance, u lik a very pretty girl dat is almost perfect but maybe a bad attitude..but still plenty of guys willing to sacrifice for her even without anyting in return.. here's the catch..all human love to challenge themselves and if the challenge is harder, we ll like it even more..and wat we, human enjoy the most is the taste of victory.. so, if happens that a guy got the dreamt girl i mention earlier, the guy would enjoy the enviness from other guys and feel proud and found a higher degree of dignity carve from the outlook of his almost perfect girlfriends...
most the guys out there would aim to get the hottest girl in town or college...same like when u have a goal to achieve like let say spm examination, u would aim to get straight A's rite? but does that mean u love to study and willing to study til death...come on..u juz wana gained some taste of success or maybe gained a pathway dat could lead u to a better future..true enough, same thing applies here, u aim for the hottest chick, and getting them prove to a success that u would be proud of and u would not give a shit of whether u love her or not...however, sometimes things does change and some ppl really get together coz of love..
an old saying that attraction is like flying a kite, u have to pull a bit then let go a bit den pull a bit den the kite would fly high...meaning that the things u want most would probably hard to get but things that comes to u easily u wont appreciate..so between people the attraction would grew higher and higher if let say the hot girl maybe hanging out wif u den days later all colled down den slowly it heated up again...this will only make the guys wants her even more..as i said earlier human likes it more when the challenge is higher..but dat only applies when u do have choices around u...if not, den ppl wud say u lansi or play hard to get...this is human world..
haiz..if i go on, ppl would actually try to practise this and if it doesnt work out nicely the world would be gays and lesbians....haha..so i guess i would end it here man....thing deep about it and share ur experience with me...untill then,cya and take cares..
this time i begin to notice about weird human behavior dat comes along the day we enter the world...or maybe with the society u grown up in..but no matter wat, it's similar to everybody whether u like it or not...
now, let me start about attraction...we all like beautiful things, rite? so most of u would agree about me saying dat all good looking guys and good looking girls are sought after,right? now, let me tell u an actual fact, most of the ppl like is actualkly the challenge of getting a good looking opposite sex.. for instance, u lik a very pretty girl dat is almost perfect but maybe a bad attitude..but still plenty of guys willing to sacrifice for her even without anyting in return.. here's the catch..all human love to challenge themselves and if the challenge is harder, we ll like it even more..and wat we, human enjoy the most is the taste of victory.. so, if happens that a guy got the dreamt girl i mention earlier, the guy would enjoy the enviness from other guys and feel proud and found a higher degree of dignity carve from the outlook of his almost perfect girlfriends...
most the guys out there would aim to get the hottest girl in town or college...same like when u have a goal to achieve like let say spm examination, u would aim to get straight A's rite? but does that mean u love to study and willing to study til death...come on..u juz wana gained some taste of success or maybe gained a pathway dat could lead u to a better future..true enough, same thing applies here, u aim for the hottest chick, and getting them prove to a success that u would be proud of and u would not give a shit of whether u love her or not...however, sometimes things does change and some ppl really get together coz of love..
an old saying that attraction is like flying a kite, u have to pull a bit then let go a bit den pull a bit den the kite would fly high...meaning that the things u want most would probably hard to get but things that comes to u easily u wont appreciate..so between people the attraction would grew higher and higher if let say the hot girl maybe hanging out wif u den days later all colled down den slowly it heated up again...this will only make the guys wants her even more..as i said earlier human likes it more when the challenge is higher..but dat only applies when u do have choices around u...if not, den ppl wud say u lansi or play hard to get...this is human world..
haiz..if i go on, ppl would actually try to practise this and if it doesnt work out nicely the world would be gays and lesbians....haha..so i guess i would end it here man....thing deep about it and share ur experience with me...untill then,cya and take cares..
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Scariness of Imagination!!!!!!
There was one day, when i was hiding under the shadow of a big tree, i saw a huge bulk of sand, where lies the ants' colony. Then my mind start to tink and imagine..
Have any of u thought before that ants might be the human in their own world? Start to picture by comparing the size of an ant to a size of a human...then by using the ratio, the size of the colony might be comparable to the size of the earth to human. To the ants, us humans might be aliens, as describe by the human race on something that we never see before..
The ants could probably have their own computers, toilets, clubs, or maybe even handphones and IPods. But it'll probably take the wildest dream to imagine how these stuff looks like in their world. But could u ever think that the ants have all this stuff?? hahaha...it would probably be too small for us to see and the electricity might be too weak to be detected...cant really imagine an and driving a car and do like what a humans do but in their own ways...
Please do not take me as a freak or someone out of mind... i m just doing some extra thinking and imagine something that most of u would say is ridiculous... Noone knows the truth... we humans make assumptions base on what we see and passed it on as knowledge..who knows, one day we might able to find out the truth...hahaha...
Right know most of u would be thinking that if the ants are advanced, why would they hunt for food around human's leftover? well, they would probably be beggars from the ants..just like human race have beggars as well rite? just that the Ants stay close and work together as a colony so these beggars from the ants maybe from a weaker or poorer colony.. just like how the poor countries in the human world seek help from others or the poor people begging around just for a meal...think deep? forget about rational tinking....just try to picture it...make some sense rite? hehehe...
The further i tink i begin to wonder if the ants have their own structures or buidings consider that humans have so many beautiful and amazing structures and countless skyscappers.. maybe the ants might have their own Great Wall of China but maybe in a size of our palm...or maybe The Pyramid but size of a baby shoes... or maybe some towers in a size of our middle finger....
hahaha....but all maybe deep down the grounds within our reach..
After imagining all this stuff, i realise the point of why we all are born with a brain..is for us too think and imagine...and i have proven that how scary can imagination be...just couldnt keep on tinking....wonder how does the ant queen got the eggs to give her? could it be that she got gang banged by all the male ants...disgusted..it could be part of ants' life.... just like how the females are treated in the olden days of human world.
Once again it shows that the world is still beyond our reach...we,human only build a comfortable life around us without knowing enough of the world... maybe we have ruined the ants world by all the developments.. what if one day, we seen something big and brightness entering the universe? It maybe another world bigger outside and we might just be the ants of the bigger world, where the humans of the bigger world disrupt and ruined our earth with their very own development... think about it... It might happen one day so appreciate and respect smaller creature as they do have a right to live. hehehe...please do not be overly obsessive on what i wrote as it is only my very own imagination...
take care and have a nice day...
Have any of u thought before that ants might be the human in their own world? Start to picture by comparing the size of an ant to a size of a human...then by using the ratio, the size of the colony might be comparable to the size of the earth to human. To the ants, us humans might be aliens, as describe by the human race on something that we never see before..
The ants could probably have their own computers, toilets, clubs, or maybe even handphones and IPods. But it'll probably take the wildest dream to imagine how these stuff looks like in their world. But could u ever think that the ants have all this stuff?? hahaha...it would probably be too small for us to see and the electricity might be too weak to be detected...cant really imagine an and driving a car and do like what a humans do but in their own ways...
Please do not take me as a freak or someone out of mind... i m just doing some extra thinking and imagine something that most of u would say is ridiculous... Noone knows the truth... we humans make assumptions base on what we see and passed it on as knowledge..who knows, one day we might able to find out the truth...hahaha...
Right know most of u would be thinking that if the ants are advanced, why would they hunt for food around human's leftover? well, they would probably be beggars from the ants..just like human race have beggars as well rite? just that the Ants stay close and work together as a colony so these beggars from the ants maybe from a weaker or poorer colony.. just like how the poor countries in the human world seek help from others or the poor people begging around just for a meal...think deep? forget about rational tinking....just try to picture it...make some sense rite? hehehe...
The further i tink i begin to wonder if the ants have their own structures or buidings consider that humans have so many beautiful and amazing structures and countless skyscappers.. maybe the ants might have their own Great Wall of China but maybe in a size of our palm...or maybe The Pyramid but size of a baby shoes... or maybe some towers in a size of our middle finger....
hahaha....but all maybe deep down the grounds within our reach..
After imagining all this stuff, i realise the point of why we all are born with a brain..is for us too think and imagine...and i have proven that how scary can imagination be...just couldnt keep on tinking....wonder how does the ant queen got the eggs to give her? could it be that she got gang banged by all the male ants...disgusted..it could be part of ants' life.... just like how the females are treated in the olden days of human world.
Once again it shows that the world is still beyond our reach...we,human only build a comfortable life around us without knowing enough of the world... maybe we have ruined the ants world by all the developments.. what if one day, we seen something big and brightness entering the universe? It maybe another world bigger outside and we might just be the ants of the bigger world, where the humans of the bigger world disrupt and ruined our earth with their very own development... think about it... It might happen one day so appreciate and respect smaller creature as they do have a right to live. hehehe...please do not be overly obsessive on what i wrote as it is only my very own imagination...
take care and have a nice day...
A world without BIAS??
Is it ever possible that this world, all the people make judgements clearly on the matters rather than barey base on the history or some other things that affects the judgement.
For example, the police would more likely suspect someone who has criminal records rather than those with clean backgrounds whenever there's a case. True enough?
Or a teacher would more likely believe and punished a student who has bad records rather than a clean record student.
But,pls think... is a good person forever good and is a bad person bad for live?? come on.. everyone deserves the chance to start all over again after doing something wrong. We're taught by our respective elders that we, human learn till the day of our last breath...therefore, if someone who did a mistake shall be taken as a lesson and given a chance to move on without "special treatment" by the public. However, this shall not apply to those murderers and any cruel act.
Let's put it in a simplier way. A guy who have been in quite a handful of relationships and things do not work out as expected. All this girls who been through the relationship with him has spread around and destroy the image of this guy. True enough, one spread to 2, and 2 to 4, 4 to 8 and it goes on......
Now, this guy fall in love with a girl and as he looks to further deepen the relationship, this girl made a judgement of what she heard from her friend's friend's friend's friend's friend. IZIT FAIR? sigh...
This is the cruelty of reality. Judgement shall be made based on what u see and not on what u hear. The girl should have known and understand the guy by herself rather than believing in what other people say. In the end, u are the one that gonna live with him, not other people.
Just like u never heard a thief, who got caught saying he did the wrong thing but blaming his mistake on the thievery or maybe the one that accused him. The same goes here, imagine the guy's previous relationship is ruined because of something the girl did, do u think the girl would go around and said she is the one to be blame? Absolutely no... the girl would go around and say as though she was thwe victim.... some of u reading might be wondering why m i juz saying as though all the girls are like that.. Strictly no offense but girls like to gossips and their network are so scary...so dont be surprise if wat u do in penang can actually spread to some other states.... provided u r known by the people in the states. Pls correct me if i m wrong...
How wonderful if we can go anywhere without people talking and gossiping about your past? What i mean here is that everyone has at least a deepest secret and a bad past that does not want people to know rite?
So i hope people in this world would not make a bias judgement based on what had happen but what is going to happen....remember, "A THIEF IS NOT NECCESSARY FOREVER A THIEF".
For example, the police would more likely suspect someone who has criminal records rather than those with clean backgrounds whenever there's a case. True enough?
Or a teacher would more likely believe and punished a student who has bad records rather than a clean record student.
But,pls think... is a good person forever good and is a bad person bad for live?? come on.. everyone deserves the chance to start all over again after doing something wrong. We're taught by our respective elders that we, human learn till the day of our last breath...therefore, if someone who did a mistake shall be taken as a lesson and given a chance to move on without "special treatment" by the public. However, this shall not apply to those murderers and any cruel act.
Let's put it in a simplier way. A guy who have been in quite a handful of relationships and things do not work out as expected. All this girls who been through the relationship with him has spread around and destroy the image of this guy. True enough, one spread to 2, and 2 to 4, 4 to 8 and it goes on......
Now, this guy fall in love with a girl and as he looks to further deepen the relationship, this girl made a judgement of what she heard from her friend's friend's friend's friend's friend. IZIT FAIR? sigh...
This is the cruelty of reality. Judgement shall be made based on what u see and not on what u hear. The girl should have known and understand the guy by herself rather than believing in what other people say. In the end, u are the one that gonna live with him, not other people.
Just like u never heard a thief, who got caught saying he did the wrong thing but blaming his mistake on the thievery or maybe the one that accused him. The same goes here, imagine the guy's previous relationship is ruined because of something the girl did, do u think the girl would go around and said she is the one to be blame? Absolutely no... the girl would go around and say as though she was thwe victim.... some of u reading might be wondering why m i juz saying as though all the girls are like that.. Strictly no offense but girls like to gossips and their network are so scary...so dont be surprise if wat u do in penang can actually spread to some other states.... provided u r known by the people in the states. Pls correct me if i m wrong...
How wonderful if we can go anywhere without people talking and gossiping about your past? What i mean here is that everyone has at least a deepest secret and a bad past that does not want people to know rite?
So i hope people in this world would not make a bias judgement based on what had happen but what is going to happen....remember, "A THIEF IS NOT NECCESSARY FOREVER A THIEF".
Monday, March 31, 2008
Dilemma....haiz...
I believe many people out there have face this trouble before....perhaps this is part of growing up. Deciding your future path is a very hard decision to make especially when you have something you dreamt of doing and finally having a chance to make it and on the other hand, something u believe is good for yourself and promise a good future ahead. Haiz....
As for my case, i have long dreamt of being a pilot and go all over the world. And being blessed with a perfect eyesight and a decent height, this dream is not far from reach. However, my mind have been influence with the career prospect of holding a degree in accountancy. So, the question now is whether i should follow my heart or follow my mind? Haiz....
People around me, from my parents to my relatives, from my friends till my lecturer, is giving me L-P-P-L answer. As usual, the older generation doubt my ability to succeed as a pilot and said being a pilot is very boring, no much different from a driver. On the other hand, my friends supported the pilot ambition and said is something special that not everybody have a chance to try but.....end up teasing me saying that they would never want to be inside the plane with em as the pilot. Lol. Y did i say all of them give me L-P-P-L answer is because no matter what they say, they end with this, "u decide yourself la,do the things u like the most...".
Haiz...and recently i seemed to got attracted to a girl, that never in my life until that very second, believe i would actually fall for her. She is not the usual hottie that could seduce you by just a single look or those bombshell dressed to kill, instead, she is a total opposite, very innocent, not flirtish, normal dressing....everything u could use to describe a good girl would be suitable for her. Wait a second, let me explain, all this time i usually interested and more preferable towards those happening and more outgoing type of girl. That is why i keep wondering and actually denying the factthat i liked her....haiz... but she seemed like a drug to me.
It is shocking to realise that i would do anyting to see a smile on her face and not expecting anyting in return. My god....help!!!! I m sinking without trace...
SO...the next thing that happen is that i actually talk to her about a possible relationship...we had a nice chat and we both agreed that it is better to be friends....would u all think i m rather stupid not to continue pursueing? What is playing around my mind is that i havent decide on my future path, how could i be able to show her a future? What if one day, i eventually become a pilot and fly everyday? Maybe seeing her or maybe not as she might also be pursueing her career or any higher level of certificates....
So, i agreed of remaining as a friend and who knows, one day we might still be together if we are meant for each other, maybe few years or a decade later....only god knows.. Fantasies even ran through my mind all the time thinking about how to make her happy and make her feel special. One that went through my mind was having a candle light dinner on the plane, maybe i could do it if i succeed as a pilot...the rest shall be kept secret and serve as a surprise and only for me n her to know....hehehe...
My mind seemed to flew too much away, let's get back to the main topic... so how shud i make a decision i would not regret later? Pilot or Accountant? I m really facing a very serious dilemma and even though economics thought us on opportunity cost, I couldnt differentiate which one is better as both have its good and bad....haiz.... If only God could tell me show me the way and tell me which is the better choice....if dat happens a lot of people would be winning 4D's already..Lol..
hopefully that is someone out there capable of differentiating the two prospects and give me some advises...and may god bless me....
As for my case, i have long dreamt of being a pilot and go all over the world. And being blessed with a perfect eyesight and a decent height, this dream is not far from reach. However, my mind have been influence with the career prospect of holding a degree in accountancy. So, the question now is whether i should follow my heart or follow my mind? Haiz....
People around me, from my parents to my relatives, from my friends till my lecturer, is giving me L-P-P-L answer. As usual, the older generation doubt my ability to succeed as a pilot and said being a pilot is very boring, no much different from a driver. On the other hand, my friends supported the pilot ambition and said is something special that not everybody have a chance to try but.....end up teasing me saying that they would never want to be inside the plane with em as the pilot. Lol. Y did i say all of them give me L-P-P-L answer is because no matter what they say, they end with this, "u decide yourself la,do the things u like the most...".
Haiz...and recently i seemed to got attracted to a girl, that never in my life until that very second, believe i would actually fall for her. She is not the usual hottie that could seduce you by just a single look or those bombshell dressed to kill, instead, she is a total opposite, very innocent, not flirtish, normal dressing....everything u could use to describe a good girl would be suitable for her. Wait a second, let me explain, all this time i usually interested and more preferable towards those happening and more outgoing type of girl. That is why i keep wondering and actually denying the factthat i liked her....haiz... but she seemed like a drug to me.
It is shocking to realise that i would do anyting to see a smile on her face and not expecting anyting in return. My god....help!!!! I m sinking without trace...
SO...the next thing that happen is that i actually talk to her about a possible relationship...we had a nice chat and we both agreed that it is better to be friends....would u all think i m rather stupid not to continue pursueing? What is playing around my mind is that i havent decide on my future path, how could i be able to show her a future? What if one day, i eventually become a pilot and fly everyday? Maybe seeing her or maybe not as she might also be pursueing her career or any higher level of certificates....
So, i agreed of remaining as a friend and who knows, one day we might still be together if we are meant for each other, maybe few years or a decade later....only god knows.. Fantasies even ran through my mind all the time thinking about how to make her happy and make her feel special. One that went through my mind was having a candle light dinner on the plane, maybe i could do it if i succeed as a pilot...the rest shall be kept secret and serve as a surprise and only for me n her to know....hehehe...
My mind seemed to flew too much away, let's get back to the main topic... so how shud i make a decision i would not regret later? Pilot or Accountant? I m really facing a very serious dilemma and even though economics thought us on opportunity cost, I couldnt differentiate which one is better as both have its good and bad....haiz.... If only God could tell me show me the way and tell me which is the better choice....if dat happens a lot of people would be winning 4D's already..Lol..
hopefully that is someone out there capable of differentiating the two prospects and give me some advises...and may god bless me....
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