Dilemma....haiz...

I believe many people out there have face this trouble before....perhaps this is part of growing up. Deciding your future path is a very hard decision to make especially when you have something you dreamt of doing and finally having a chance to make it and on the other hand, something u believe is good for yourself and promise a good future ahead. Haiz....

As for my case, i have long dreamt of being a pilot and go all over the world. And being blessed with a perfect eyesight and a decent height, this dream is not far from reach. However, my mind have been influence with the career prospect of holding a degree in accountancy. So, the question now is whether i should follow my heart or follow my mind? Haiz....

People around me, from my parents to my relatives, from my friends till my lecturer, is giving me L-P-P-L answer. As usual, the older generation doubt my ability to succeed as a pilot and said being a pilot is very boring, no much different from a driver. On the other hand, my friends supported the pilot ambition and said is something special that not everybody have a chance to try but.....end up teasing me saying that they would never want to be inside the plane with em as the pilot. Lol. Y did i say all of them give me L-P-P-L answer is because no matter what they say, they end with this, "u decide yourself la,do the things u like the most...".

Haiz...and recently i seemed to got attracted to a girl, that never in my life until that very second, believe i would actually fall for her. She is not the usual hottie that could seduce you by just a single look or those bombshell dressed to kill, instead, she is a total opposite, very innocent, not flirtish, normal dressing....everything u could use to describe a good girl would be suitable for her. Wait a second, let me explain, all this time i usually interested and more preferable towards those happening and more outgoing type of girl. That is why i keep wondering and actually denying the factthat i liked her....haiz... but she seemed like a drug to me.
It is shocking to realise that i would do anyting to see a smile on her face and not expecting anyting in return. My god....help!!!! I m sinking without trace...

SO...the next thing that happen is that i actually talk to her about a possible relationship...we had a nice chat and we both agreed that it is better to be friends....would u all think i m rather stupid not to continue pursueing? What is playing around my mind is that i havent decide on my future path, how could i be able to show her a future? What if one day, i eventually become a pilot and fly everyday? Maybe seeing her or maybe not as she might also be pursueing her career or any higher level of certificates....

So, i agreed of remaining as a friend and who knows, one day we might still be together if we are meant for each other, maybe few years or a decade later....only god knows.. Fantasies even ran through my mind all the time thinking about how to make her happy and make her feel special. One that went through my mind was having a candle light dinner on the plane, maybe i could do it if i succeed as a pilot...the rest shall be kept secret and serve as a surprise and only for me n her to know....hehehe...

My mind seemed to flew too much away, let's get back to the main topic... so how shud i make a decision i would not regret later? Pilot or Accountant? I m really facing a very serious dilemma and even though economics thought us on opportunity cost, I couldnt differentiate which one is better as both have its good and bad....haiz.... If only God could tell me show me the way and tell me which is the better choice....if dat happens a lot of people would be winning 4D's already..Lol..

hopefully that is someone out there capable of differentiating the two prospects and give me some advises...and may god bless me....